Heartache and Wine

Well, what do we have here? A little bit of heartbreak mixed with a little box of wine, and it makes for a very crappy beginning to the summer. Recently I have noticed that there seems to be a rising increase in the broken hearts category lately. Although I am horrible at giving relationship and love advice, considering I can't keep a man's attention for more than a few hours if I'm lucky, and if he's not already cold drunk. I figure I can at least let everyone in on what I learned from having a broken heart myself.

Three months of self acceptance was in the making this Spring and I didn't even have a clue that this is what was actually happening. I figured it was just three months of pure torture, tears, and a whole lot of merlot. Living with a broken heart is by far one of the worst feelings a person can go through. Whether it is from the loss of someone, something, or the loss of love, it hurts! I would rather take a punch to the jugular with a stun gun than to feel that pain again. Yet through the turmoil came a time when I said to myself, "enough." It took courage to look myself in the mirror and remind myself of who I was and who I was destined to become. It was time to look into myself, take the hurt I was feeling, and fuel myself to the next step. 

Three months of heartbreak taught me that I am worth so much more than I thought. 

Finally I was able to see the beauty inside myself, the leader I want to be, the beautiful soul I seek to unearth. I am worth more than tears, more than pain, and so are you. It's hard to see at first but once you see it you will never settle for less than that again. 

I learned patience.

The single most important thing I learned is patience. I prayed for it and oh boy did I pay for that prayer! The good Lord sure gave me something to be patient about, three months worth of it. Living in a world where everyone gets everything they want and right away kills our patience. After three months of having to wait on answers I still haven't received, I learned that waiting for the right thing, at the right time is better than getting the wrong things fast. 

Significant others do not complete you. 

I used to think that in order to live a happy life in a happy relationship that I needed that one person to complete me. This my friends is a lie. If you are not complete with yourself, then the brokenness pours into the relationship and you repel your mate rather than bring them closer. Find yourself before you bring someone else into the mix. You want a relationship where two complete puzzle pieces come together to make one big picture. 

Forgiveness.

Forgiving those who hurt you does not make you a weak person, because it takes a whole lot of strength to forgive someone who broke your heart. 

I found myself. 

Three months of heartache allowed me to dig deep into myself and ask myself daily who I really am. I am a loving, passionate, woman who believes in fighting for what you believe in. I bend the rules to make people think. I enjoy being a voice for the voiceless, donating my time, helping the helpless. I am beautiful with flaws that make me unique. I am strong although I have my weaknesses. I am a fighter who uses negativity to empower me and my business in order to push myself onto the next level of success. I will never need a significant other to complete me, I want one to join me in my travels to becoming a better person for this world. We all need to find ourselves, find out who we are, define who we will become, so that no one can define that for us. 

This summer started off pretty crappy for many of us, we found ourselves dancing in the rain so no one saw our tears. Now it's time to take that heartbreak and use it to make ourselves stronger, better, and more beautiful than before. Don't need it, want it. The most beautiful art comes from the most horrible of pain, now dig inside and start painting.